This intense pressure caused Winehouse to detest her newfound fame, according to James, who wanted to be a celebrity, too.
When he’d talk about his yearning for fame and fortune, he says the Back to Black performer would tell him, “T, fame is like terminal cancer. I wouldn’t wish it on anyone.”
He describes how she eventually became reclusive and mistrustful of those around her, including him. James shares, “I was the only friend she had left by then, the only person around her all the time who wasn’t paid to be around her.”
James says since she’s died, he struggles to go on with his life without the woman he calls “the love of my life.” It was only a few years ago that he found comfort in writing about their experiences, which he has turned into the book My Amy: The Life We Shared, which was published on Thursday, June 10.